Merry Christmas!! :D and a Happy New Year!
Do do do do .. 8’ i dont really like singing when im feeling the way i feel right now. Well just finished showering and i thought it would help me a bit but it didnt do much. It’s kind of odd .. I don’t want to believe it, but it seems that i try in return of half. It might just be me though. Say bye, instead of hi, push me away, when i wanna be reached. I think it’s just me . Most likely will never see this, but if you ever do , well then you see it haha! I fail a lot. Just seem to never get that .. you know, 100% it’s something i can’t do and i don’t think i will anytime soon. Have you ever wanted to just drown in music? Nothing but the sweet sounds of tunes and jingles. For atleast 2 minutes. Wanted to scream at the top of your lungs? scream for frustration or joy, yet you can’t cause something holds you back? It’s weird. something i don’t think anyone will figure out . Theres always a lot on my mind. I can never have it cleared. It’s hard -,- Either try hard or not enough. The balance is one of the difficult ones. Well I’m kind of tired and this is boring and no one will read. Peace
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so today was pretty big .. everyone over and had a blast, prolly be the last one for awhile . well, as we planned, it went down. and i’m glad it did, although it wasn’t exactly what i was expecting, i kinda liked it better .. haha, right now, feeling outta it, sometimes.. when someone tells you something, you just cant take their word for it. i guess others just need a little more reminding, or just don’t even listen. Looks like i’ll just have to do something about it, some friend huh?
frick, never thought i’d be back in this same situation -,- i cant believe thats its re-occuring with just new people. Really wish i could deal with this already, i hate how you’re doing this to yourself, making me feel like a jerk .. but yehknow what? its my time to be happy. my time to get what i want, be with who i want to be with. sorry.. but i wont back down.
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so thanksgiving was not even thanksgiving. I mean im thankful for everything i have and for everything i can still obtain, but thanksgiving without the family isn’t thanksgiving. Idk why but it just doesn’t feel right when we’re not together for occasions such as this. And here im hoping christmas doesn’t fall apart aswell. anyways .. kind of boring weekend, stayed home for most of it -,- was hoping school would make up for it .. ha , yeah right! well atleast we have short weeks for the next three - four weeks? For once i wish I had a crazy day. A day that was just straight awesome, but so much for those days.
havent been on tumblr since hmm last year? even then i dont even know, oh well, soo tumblr.. you’re kinda boring when you got nothing to write about. i guess i could say today was AWESOME, good chillage, planning on doing it again sometime! ohk well im tireed, peeace out!
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